.o0 Richard Adores You 0o.

Saturday, Jan. 24, 2004 - 11:40 p.m.

Yesterday, Derek was talking to Ceci about a party thing that was happening at a bar for Derek and who was coming and who wasn't. I got indignant about not having been invited. Ceci thought I was joking. I didn't disabuse her of this notion... Derek looked at me and said "you're too young to go to a bar, young lady!" I wanted to cry. I did later. But different context. I corrected Derek's mistake and went to lunch. After lunch while the rest of the store was dealing with a thief, I had Derek alone in the POS office. I told him everything that has been weighing on me lately, especially with Richard, about feeling really close to people at the store but never seeing them outside of work or hanging out with them or anything... I ended up crying and getting mad at myself for crying. Derek is always very quick to reassure me about that. It worries me anyway. I don't want to be the crier.

Here's the thing... Derek told me that he would absolutely love to hang out with me anytime. I told him that I was feeling especially insecure about this stuff in relation to Richard... Derek interrupted me right there. "Richard adores you, by the way." He proceeded to tell me how my name always always comes up when the managers have meetings, talking about who they like and who is really good and I always come up as everyone's favorite.

"Richard adores you"

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